This is my journey from couch to athlete.

Sunday, July 19, 2009


I haven't updated in a while because not much has really changed and I think Jordan is the only person left who still reads. I understand that it was way more interesting to follow the half iron and Ironman training than the collapse that has proceeded the Ironman DNF. I really feel like that DNF was meant to be a colossal life lesson that was going to make me a better person. It definitely gave me perspective on life balance and how much that kind of training interferes with things that are truly important. I thought I had made sense of it all and learned my lesson (while I still had a family and friends) but that dnf followed by a job lay off has seriously damaged my sense of self worth. I know logically that both events were the result of things beyond my control but I just can't seem to shake the feeling that I toppled from the top of the world.I went from being a student, full time employee, and triathlete to nothing. I know there is more out there for me, and coaching gave me a taste of doing something beyond myself, but right now I need to take care of my career and life. My motivation to do anything has completely hit the skids and now with a heel spur and a persistent sore back, I can't run or do crossfit. It's common knowledge that I exercise as much for my mental health as my physical so it's just a downward spiral. I know when this falls together - it's all going to fix itself quickly but right now there are times when I just can't see the light...


  • At 12:34 PM, Blogger dkermode said…

    ...there is more than one person that follows your blog...

    Hang in there, I know that's not much comfort but the feelings of the downward spiral will pass.

    Be kind to yourself- The motivation, the zest for life will return - it just takes time.

  • At 5:59 PM, Blogger Kelodie said…

    Hi Kerri,

    I am still reading your blog. I think I can understand how you feel but I promise you that this too shall pass. In the meantime, take good care of yourself and feel all the sadness and frustration you need to feel to get better.



  • At 1:42 PM, Blogger Shaunene said…

    Oh Lady,

    You are only given that which you can handle. I check here often and think of you lots while out on my training adventures. On the exercise front - water running, no impact and allows you to do something. As others have said be kind to yourself it will all sort it self out.

    Cyber Hugs


  • At 2:39 PM, Blogger eme said…

    I'm still reading.

    Hang in there, it will get better.

  • At 9:36 AM, Blogger FreddyBeachPete said…

    I'm still reading too !!

  • At 6:33 PM, Blogger prashant said…

    I think I can understand how you feel but I promise you that this too shall pass.
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